It’s that time of the year again … Spring. Some celebrate Easter, some Passover, some the Equinox (Shout out to my sista! Hollar! Sorry… or is it a Solstice? UGH) But regardless, they all signify the sameish thing, New Beginnings. I like to look at them as a Fresh Start. Kinda like when you get out of the shower and you smell so fresh and so clean clean. Everything is perfect at that moment.
Recently, I’ve been in “Crisis” mode (as my PDoc calls it, he didn’t like me referring to it as mental breakdown. Meh…) and I KNOW I am in need of a Fresh start of some sort. Though the funny thing is, it was recent fresh starts that put me in Crisis mode.
New New New (Except I like the new clothes….)
And I like the new job, and the new people (why yes I did leave out the New Home … it’s kinda small. Still working on liking that one), but I liked not having those things too. I think where the problem came in was, I didn’t WANT any of those. But I NEEDED to get them. It’s all kinda the backlash of my no longer pending divorce. And although I’m happy to be back with my husband and working things out, these repercussions are becoming a bit much. (Minus the people … I really like the people … and the clothes …)
And thus I am looking for a way to put that all behind and start fresh. But guess what that means???
Oh and let’s not forget the decisions that go with making those changes.
But Fresh Starts are good, right? Putting the past behind us and moving forward with the future. I mean it sounds so easy! It SHOULD be just like getting in a car and driving away to start a new life. But it’s not that easy.
First you need to decide what kind of changes to make. Then you need to think about what consequences those changes will have on your life and the lives around you. And then you need to come up with a plan to put those changes in place. I’m getting all Anxiety ridden just writing all that!
So knowing I need this fresh start, this new beginning what have you, I started small.
I chopped my hair off.
Maybe I’ll get some highlights.
And a new pair of shoes.
And THEN I’ll sit back and think about what I’m going to do with the rest of my life, because so far … I’m at a loss.
How do you feel about Fresh Starts and New Beginnings?
Do you like Changing? Or is it easier just to stay in a rut?