Christi

Christi (yup, that’s me!) is 35 years old and was diagnosed with Bipolar II in 2006. She was very lucky to have found Ask A Bipolar and it’s founder Marybeth.  Not only did Ask A Bipolar help her learn more about her illness, it jump started her path into the Mental Health Blogosphere. Marybeth has handed the torch over to her now, so she kind of (ok, not kind of, DOES) run this awesome site now.  She’s really excited about how things are turning out for her in the land of mental health advocacy and social media.  But, how did it all begin? Let’s start from the beginning.

Her journey began in high school where she was a very depressed perfectionist and had trouble keeping friends. She turned to eating disorders (both anorexia and bulimia) and was treated sporadically by various campus doctors, until 2004. Her and her depressed,  eating disordered butt landed into the office of a psychotherapist, who still remains her psychotherapist (I can’t even imagine how thick my file is! we’ve been through A LOT together!). Together they worked through the eating disorders and depression, until 2006 when she checked into the hospital and was diagnosed with Bipolar II. After a 2 week stay, she was released into a full-time outpatient therapy program, which she completed 6 months later, in March 2007.   It was in the outpatient therapy program that she learned a great deal, not just about herself and her own illness, but about relating to others and healthy relationships.

Her family and friends, have been, and continue to be, supportive as she soars up and down on the bipolar coaster while doing her best to attain stability in the curve balls that life has been throwing her these days.  She had a minor (ok, it wasn’t minor, it was pretty major) faceplant in January 2012 when she crashed and burned and went on disability leave from her paralegal career.  She got divorced and then entered the world of chronic pain when she herniated a disc in her lower back and had to have back surgery.  She is now working her way back up to the top and trying to reassemble the pieces of her life that fell apart.

Prior to her major faceplant, Christi had been a blogger for International Bipolar Foundation (and published in their book, Healthy Living With Bipolar Disorder), started her own blog and website called Musings of the Bipolar Hot Mess.  She was a Psych Central Mental Health Hero 2013, a Mental Health Warrior 2015, and has received other award nominations for her website bipolarhotmess.com.

You can contact Christi via email at christi @ askabipolar . com (removes spaces after pasting)

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  1. My husband, with whom I’ve been with for 15 years, told me when our third child was 2-weeks-old he no longer loves me. This was 7 weeks ago. He is bipolar II and suffered from crippling, catatonic depression the better part of a decade until 3 years ago when he underwent electroconvulsive therapy. But he hated it, and to avoid ECT upped what was a low-dose of Lexapro this spring after his depression returned (it had been two years!). We just moved a little over a year ago and his new doctors do not know him very well – the doc who gave him the higher dose of Lexapro just did med management for a few months. He has since moved onto a new doctor who would never know he was hypomanic. I believe he has been in a hypomanic state since the spring. He says his feelings for me have waxed and waned for the better part of 5 years (which marks when his depression became truly catastrophic in nature). I do not dismiss the stresses our relationship has endured, and the fact he has likely been unable to FEEL much of anything a lot of the time. He felt controlled, is tired of always being wrong and I’m right, of not meeting my needs, and of my emotional reactions when I am sad, scared, or frustrated. But he has been VERY different since the spring, sleeping less, more energized, super focused on work, and incredibly avoidant of me. Just a year ago we were buying a house and trying for a third baby, and now he’s ready to leave. He insists this has been building a long time and has called into question our whole relationship. I know in my bones how in love we were/are, but he is a different man. Any help would be greatly appreciated. I understand he needs to work things out for himself, but this is new territory for us. His hypomania in the past was very subtle, and lasted just a few days. I have attended NAMI classes, done lots of research, and work an Al-Anon program all to maintain our relationship, and though we were in marriage counseling for years he NEVER SAID A WORD about his lack of feelings, etc. I am terrified, but know at the very least I am going to mourn what I thought our relationship WAS, regardless of how things work out. We have three amazing kids, and he is the love of my life. I fear this illness was wrecking havoc on our relationship right under my nose, impeding his ability to connect and building resentments towards me for advocating for self-care, and my own needs, along the way. It’d be nice to hear other’s experiences on the impacts hypomania can have on marriage. Right now he has no sleep hygiene, no exercise, no healthy diet awareness, and is only taking the meds I ironically would like him to stop. I am bereft.

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