Bipolar Disorder and a Life-Threatening Illness
As a person with Bipolar Disorder, I have always feared getting a life-threatening illness. Well, that happened to me in June of 2007. I was diagnosed with bladder and kidney cancers. It was a fearful time and the first thing I thought was, “Oh no! How am I going to control my Bipolar Disorder with this illness?” Knowing that chemotherapy usually makes people very sick, I was very worried about how I would keep my pills in my stomach without vomiting them up.
Well, this is my story on how I coped with it all.
I started chemotherapy right away. I had a conversation with my psychiatrist over how I would stay stable since my medications would be messed with due to the therapy. She said we would do what we could so I could stay functioning.
After I started chemotherapy the hardest part was the nausea. Who wants to eat or drink while nauseated? I know I really struggled with it. So, as soon as I could I would take my psychiatric medications with as much food as my gut would tolerate. I stayed somewhat stable.
Also, while going through this there was a lot of fear as well. I had to decipher my moods and what they were caused from at the time. This is something I didn’t like too much. It was often times hard to tell what my moods were from at the time. I believe that a lot of the depression was situational. I didn’t know if I was going to live or die. Would the chemo kill the cancer? How would I live through this? This was hard stuff to deal with and trying to decipher which meds would work best for me while I was sick.
So….all in all it was a tough time. I am still in remission today. I am stable on my medications again. And my body is healing from all it had been through. My hair has grown back. I am doing well.
Having Bipolar Disorder with a life-threatening illness is difficult. I couldn’t take my meds like normal and my mood were fluctuating around all over the place. When I had mania I would do what I could to get things moving for myself even though my body was working against me. I was manic in my brain but my body wouldn’t move too far due to the chemotherapy.
If you have Bipolar Disorder and are diagnosed with a life-threatening illness, is it possible to make it through it if you have Bipolar Disorder. It takes determination and one thing I know for sure is that I could never give up. I have too much at stake with my husband and three boys who need me.
It was hard but I came out on top. And so can you. Just keep telling yourself, “I can beat this and this disease won’t win!”
Take care and I hope this is of help and comfort to those who may be struggling with a situation that is similar to mine!