I get to ask a question and it’s so way much more than just idle curiosity.
Well, actually it’s more like a series of questions that add up to my need to implore “Please, someone say that they have felt this way so I don’t feel so weird and think I’m the only one who has felt this way.” Sorry if that sounds rather needy, I don’t mean for it to be…I just hate being the “odd man (well woman) out” don’t you??
Ok, so as a few of you already know, for the past several months I’ve really struggled and have had a very difficult time with both my mental and physical health. I know most of you have no idea what I’m talking about and I won’t bore you with a long tale of woe.
Finally things started to get better and the depression I was feeling was slowly starting to abate. However after feeling so bad for quite a long period of time I didn’t quite know how to handle it.
My family has tried to help me understand that I’m doing much better but I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop so to speak. I had been feeling so bad I was afraid to feel good. Does that make any sense to any of you?
Sometimes I think we get so used to the chaos, mood swings, depression and just basically feeling terrible we forget what feeling good and happiness is. I know that’s how I’m feeling. And I’m terrified it’s just an illusion and will disappear at any moment. (Yes, I do tend to be a little paranoid at times). And for family members, loved ones and friends of a person who has bipolar do you find it hard to convince them that it’s okay to feel good and be happy?
I’d really appreciate any input or experiences you might have had with this issue.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this as I really am quite curious about this issue.