“I believe that I have bipolar disorder. I’ve been struggling with crazy and random mood swings for a while now. Started going to a counselor but for some reason can’t seem to open up and I always leave feeling like I wasted my time. The problem I have is that my mood swings can be so random that they changed often. And anything can tip them off. I find myself so frustrated and irritated but I don’t know why. Whenever I feel like it’s my breaking point and that I need to tell someone I need help, it’s like my mood swings switch and I just think wow I’m being dumb, why am I do dramatic? I’m pushing people away, and snapping at everyone and I never have a reason why for my bad moods. So my question is, how do I convince someone I need help when I confuse myself anyway?”
One thing that could help you is keeping a journal of how you’re feeling every day, and what all happened to make you feel that way (or if nothing happened, write that down too). Then share this with your counselor. This should really help him/her.
Another thing that could be helpful is keep a mood journal. This is sort of the same as a regular journal. This charts your mood throughout the day. You can find many good ones online. Some of them you can chart in multiple times a day. Some of them you just average out the feelings for the day. Personally, I feel the ones you can chart in multiple times a day is better. Some of them will let you print them out to show your counselor, some of them your counselor can sign on to in his/her free time, or you can sign on with them while you are there for your appt.
Something you can do if you find you are having trouble opening up to your counselor is writing out a conversation. I know that sounds strange, but this has really helped me in the past. You can write down things you want to talk about ahead of time. Then, when you get there, you can either have your counselor talk to you while you write back, or you can both write your comments on paper. As weird as it sounds, it really does help. It’s much easier to express your feelings when you are expressing them on paper.
And don’t worry about confusing yourself… I think most people with bipolar gets confused by themselves. Actually, I think EVERY one gets confused now and then. We just have it a little worse. You won’t have to convince any professional once they know what’s going on in your mind. Just use some of these skills, and maybe some others that people may suggest, and do your best to open up as far as you can. It may take time and patience, but it will happen. Have faith. You’ll be ok and you’ll get through this!
I’m wishing you the best of luck! And if you need anything else, don’t hesitate to e-mail us!