When you think the guilt monsters have gone on their merry way, BAM! They make their move!
It all starts with one single thought of self doubt, then it becomes like a domino train that seems to never end.
“I don’t deserve anything.”
“I’m a nuisance to others.”
“If I wasn’t here people would be happier.”
“If I wasn’t such a failure, I would maybe even know how to like or love myself.”
“I’m a bad person.”
“I want to hurt myself.”
And the list goes on, and the guilt monsters keep screaming things to you to see how strong you really are. Be prepared to fight back, with your bipolar weapons!
Here’s the things we should think instead, of the above.
“Whether I deserve it or not, I’m grateful to have a roof over my head.”
“I’m thankful for what I have and will accept it.”
“I may feel like a nuisance, or I can feel helpful and reach out to those who are helping me.”
“I am here, not to make others happy, but to take care of my own happiness”
“I may fail, but if I’m not looking for the successes no matter how small, I will miss out on liking or loving myself.”
“I feel badly right now, this does not equate to feeling like a bad person.”
“I want the pain to diminish in a healthy way. Temporary solutions will permanently affect me.”
When guilt rears its ugly head, what do you do to cope? I lean on my support groups, do deep breathing exercises and I cry to get it all out. The tears will flow, let them, then take a deep breath and remember you are never alone!
Written by Jules Pittman