How Did I Solve The Mystery????

How did I solve the mystery of what in world was wrong with me?  Well, it sure wasn’t easy and it sure took a long time, I’m not going to lie.   Sometimes it can seem hard to believe that the ones answering all of your questions on this page have struggled, and STILL struggle at times, with the very same illness. My bio describes a little bit of my journey toward a diagnosis, but in this video, I tell my story to you. You may find some similarities, you may not. We all have our own unique journey which brought us to where we are today, but the one thing that is certain is you are not alone, and here at Ask A Bipolar, we understand. We may not have gone down the exact same path, but we have experienced the highs and lows and in betweens that eventually led to a diagnosis.

 So, make yourselves comfortable. This is my story.

14 thoughts on “How Did I Solve The Mystery????

  1. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I was wondering, did you ever experience mania? Or was it primarily depression? If so, did they reach the diagnosis of bipolar from your response to the mood stabilizers? I’m glad that you have found stability and can now help others, we really appreciate it!

  2. Currently, I only experience hypomania and leading up to my diagnosis, the mania I recall experiencing was substance abuse induced. There are a lot of periods of time that I have blacked out and reading journals, I think may have been mania, but none that I can remember. I think part of the diagnosis was based on my response to mood stabilizers (Lithium), but mine was primarily depression.

  3. Hmmm… Sounds a lot like my son. Why is it that doctors diagnosis adults with bipolar 2, but in children, like my son, they don’t consider it, it seems they are only looking for full blown mania in children for a bipolar diagnosis. My son also had a wonderful response to Lithium, but they told me that they can’t use his response to medication to determine a diagnosis. It is interesting…

  4. From what I have read in my research on bipolar, most people experience their first episode of mania in their 20’s. The doctors may be waiting for that time frame to pass before they make an official diagnosis. Once the person has passed that age range, the doctors may feel more confident in making a diagnosis. I’m just guessing here, but that would be one reason I would think of that.

  5. Thanks for taking the time to watch. I just want others to know that there are people in the same position and that there are people who understand and that things can get better!

  6. Thanks for posting this. It is something I don’t personally have to deal with but I do have relatives that struggle.
    I hope that you have a Happy Year and more.

  7. Thanks for sharing, Christi. Like you, I was relieved when I finally received a diagnosis of bipolar. Finally, there was a name for what I was going through. Take care and good luck!!

  8. I was “diagnosed” bipolar in 2007. I use quotations because I have been having the hardest time with Dr.s figuring out my correct diagnosis. I am currently in an outpatient program where they believe I have major depression, generalized anxiety disorder w/ borderline personality disorder traits. ??? So I am on many meds and feeling all of the side effects. Also I haven’t worked in 6 months & I’m scared i’ll lose my job if I stay in this program but the Dr.’s don’t want me to leave yet thinking I may relapse…. Have any thoughts? 🙂

  9. Tiffany, my best advice is to listen to your doctors. When I was going through my hospitalizations and therapy, I thought I knew more then they did and I took it into my own hands and I ended up relapsing 3 days after and landed back in the hospital on Thanksgiving morning. From that point on, I had to relinquish the control to them and let them observe and treat me based on their knowledge and experience. THAT DOES NOT MEAN THAT YOU DON’T GET A SAY OR HAVE AN OPINION OR VOICE, but what it does mean is that their advice should have a heavy weight in your decision making because they have the knowledge about these illnesses that we don’t and they can see things in a non-biased way. Once I realized that and adhered to their treatment plan and took the medications they prescribed, I began to feel better. The one thing that was key in this whole process though was HONESTY. I had to be completely honest with how the meds were working or weren’t working; if I was taking them or if I wasn’t. It was the only way to get accurate results. So be honest and work with them. Thats my best advice based on the experience I had. I hope this helps a little bit.

    ~christi~

  10. I have been diagnosed with depression but people have approached me (friends) asking me if I have thought about whether I might be bipolar. I have huge depressive states and was the same as a teen, living in my room by trance music and candles. I went quite off the rails as I got a little older and when I had my first long term relationship I began to drink, a lot. I still do turn to alcohol when I am in a bad state! Trouble is I also have manic states too, I can completely switch and be way off with the fairies, my weight also goes up and down with my mood and I concentrate hard on what I am eating, though I dont think I have had anorexia!
    My doctor is not the easist to speak to and I really have no idea what I am supposed to do next. 🙁

  11. Well, my first suggestion, and its only my opinion, I’m not a doctor and don’t know you personally Nissa, so this is just what I would do based on what you have posted, but I would try to find a different doctor. You should be able to talk to your doctor about any and everything because the only way to get effective treatment is through being open and honest. They need to know all the symptoms, all the side effects, all the behaviors, and how things are affected by the different medications. If you can’t be open and honest and talk to your doctor about it, he isn’t getting the full picture and can’t treat you effectively and with the proper medications and/or therapy.

    I actually just addressed self-medicating with substances in my post yesterday: http://www.askabipolar.com/medicating-denial/

    It doesn’t sound like you have anorexia if the eating is just going up and down because of your mood and if the concentration is focused on trying hard TO eat and making sure you are eating. If the focus is more along the lines of restricting calories because you don’t want to gain weight again or not eating to stay thin, those are more along the lines of eating disorder patterns.

    At the end of the day, my best advice is to try to find yourself a new doctor that you can talk to freely and openly. Once you can get that clear communication going, I think you will have much more success in your treatment and controlling the ups and downs.

    ****Side note – I’d also try to stay away from the alcohol. It may help at the moment, but it really messes with all the medication that is in your body and that you may be taking at the moment and the effects from the combination can last longer than just the “buzz” period or “hangover” period. I feel effects up to several days later depending on how much I have had. Just a little bit of advice from someone who has been down that route also and has found much more success when I DON’T go back down that road!****

    ~Christi~

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