Why I<3 AaB…
Have you ever walked through life constantly feeling misunderstood? You’re the outcast that no one wants to get to know for fear of what may happen. You’re the crazy one in your school and those who are nice enough to befriend you must have done so out of pity because you’re the charity case. You have friends just so they can feel better about themselves, not because they truly care. You’re the freak. You’re the kid with bipolar.
That was me before Ask A Bipolar.
I try to remain optimistic. I try to tell myself that this isn’t really what my life is like, that people care. As soon as I begin to believe, I get thrown into the mud once again and come up dirty.
I’ve always had this illness, but I was just recently diagnosed. When I received the correct diagnosis there were “friends” who stopped talking to me. My freak side was clearly exposed. In the movies and media you hear about all the bad things people do when they have bipolar. You never hear about all the wonderful things that come with such a shammed illness. No one tells you that most bipolar people are creative and intelligent and very sensitive to the outside world which makes them extremely observant. You never hear about the wonderful things that come with this illness.
I found support though AaB on their website and Facebook out of desperation. I was going through transitions in employment which had left me without health insurance and thus without any kind of treatment. That’s what happens when you make “too much money”.
I’m not quite sure how I found the support online. At the time my life was a blur. I do remember the sense of relief I felt after chatting with some of the people I met thought the Ask A Bipolar support group on Facebook. These are people who understand and truly care! Everyone in this atmosphere is like me! They all have bipolar!
I had similar feelings when I found the website for the first time. I found myself saying, “Exactly!!” a lot!
It’s the most wonderful thing in the world to know that you’re not alone, to realize people do care and that you’re not a freak! I’ve been connected to this site and the people I’ve met since finding it and for good reason. Other people like me are sometimes hard to find because of the stigma we are all fighting so hard against. There are many out there who fear telling others they have the illness because of the negative stigma that surrounds it and I admit that I sometimes fall into that category. We are not “bipolar”. We have “bipolar”. Just because we have this illness it doesn’t make us freaks!
Yes it’s true that there are many who may never understand me. It’s true that when some people find out I have bipolar they will run for the hills. It’s also true that since Ask A Bipolar is around people like me can find peace and understanding. Sometimes through the AaB Facebook support group I can find a friend at 3am when one is really needed. Hopefully when someone else is having a dark day I can be there for them too. 🙂
Thank you to all my true friends for sticking around. Thank you to AaB for being around so that more friends can be made.
So here I am…whole, at peace, with friends and not a freak…all because of Ask a Bipolar! 😀