As most of you already know, I am going through the unfortunate process of divorce. Through this journey, I’ve gathered a bit of questions. I don’t intend to burden you with them all just yet, but I am curious about a few things.
If you’ve been through a divorce, do you ever get that feeling that people who find out you have BP will automatically blame the whole thing on you and your illness? I mean, I KNOW that my illness has nothing to do with the break down of my marriage, but I still can’t wonder if other people think that.
Though I’m not really sure I’m ready to enter the whole “dating scene”, I have worries about when I do. I mean coming out of the bipolar closet to someone you just met an potentially like is a frightening task. How would one even go about that? Especially when you’re me and you run a whole freaking site (and you are insanely proud of it) that is focused on this illness. Just saying …
*Tiny Prayer* Dear Lord, Please bring me a boy who already knows about bipolar and DOES NOT judge. Cuz that would be sort of awesome! Thanks, Me. *Tiny Prayer over*
Again, although I KNOW my illness was not the cause for my husband and I separating, if you’ve been through this, do you ever feel that guilty feeling in the pit of your stomach that maybe, indirectly, bipolar was the cause? I mean, I KNOW it wasn’t … but I suppose a tiny little piece of me (kinda like the size of a flea … those little buggers are nasty!) will always be suspicious!
Ok, I’m fully aware that all these questions are insanely ridiculous. But I had to throw them out there.
Love you guys!!!